Moved Back!

I’ve moved back to the old address… where else… eryan.blogspot!

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Think I’m not blogging anymore . . . There’s just nothing to blog abt . . .

At times I felt used . . . Thx to ALL who have taken advantage of me, cos . . . You ppl made me a stronger person!

 

Music

If Your Heart’s Not In It 

Ooh ooh
Ooh… oh yeah
Baby

Shane (Mark):
I’m missing you
Girl even though you’re right here by my side
Cos lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I’m so afraid that you’re saying it’s over (it’s over)
It’s the last thing that I wanna hear (oh)
Mark:
But if your heart’s not in it for real
Please don’t try to fake what you don’t feel
If love’s already gone, it’s not fair to lead me on
Mark (all):
Cos I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I’d do
But I won’t ask you to stay
I’d rather walk away
If your heart’s not in it
Oh oh

Bryan (Mark):
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes, you’re just saying the words
(Just saying the words)
If you’ve got something to tell me don’t keep it inside
(Oh no) let it be heard
I’m so afraid that you’re saying it’s over
Mark:
But girl I’ll make it easy for you
All (Mark):
If your heart’s not in it for real
Please don’t try to fake what you don’t feel
If love’s already gone, it’s not fair to lead me on
Cos I would give the whole world for you (for you)
Anything you ask of me I’d do
But I won’t ask you to stay
I’d rather walk away
Mark:
Than if your heart’s not in it

Bryan:
How I wish I could take this back in time
Shane:
But it’s gone too far now we can’t rewind
All (Shane):
There’s nothing that I can do (oh) to stop me losing you
Shane:
I can’t make you change your mind

No no
If your heart’s not in it (oh yeah)

All:
(Oh oh) oh baby if your heart’s not in it for real (for real)
Please don’t try to fake what you don’t feel (feel)
But I won’t ask you to stay
I’d rather walk away
(Oh no) if your heart’s not in it for real
Please don’t try to fake what you don’t feel
(You don’t have to fake it if it’s not real)
If love’s already gone, it’s not fair to lead me on
(Don’t lead…)
Cos I would give the whole world for you (for you)
Anything you ask of me I’d do
(I swear I’d do…) (rpt to fade)

Words and Sayings. . .

“Sekiranya kita bercinta dgn seseorang yang begitu menyintai diri kita dan tiba-tiba cinta memilih untuk pergi,tiada siapa yang harus dipersalahkan,relakanlah cinta itu pergi.Kerana setiap yang berlaku ada maksud yang tersembunyi..Dan kita akan menyedari apabila masa silih berganti.”

You come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.
~ Sam Keen

When a Cam Whore Meets PSP Cam

Muka mintak kena sepak (A face tts asking 4 a slap)

Acting Cute

Muka Step!!

Fierce!

Kiss My Foot…

Dun finger me……

Thedy @ Work while I’m Cam-whorin’ heh

Music

Usher – Separated

Oh no, no, no, no

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn’t have wings
If love was a sky
We’d be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn’t for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we’re lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We’re not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn’t for me and you

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It’s sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can’t deny
I can’t say we didn’t try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it’s best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I’ll walk away so you don’t have to see me cry
It’s killing me so, why don’t you go

So why don’t you go your way
And I’ll go mine
Live your life, and I’ll live mine
Baby you’ll do well, and I’ll be fine
Cause we’re better off, separated

Seduction

Eh… Tt same feelin is back aft 2 yrs! Dammit…

Work is fine, been bitching abt a paramedic… Lol… Poor Thedy, had to listen to my complaints… N he showed Justina all the msgs I sent him! Argh… Now Justina noes tt I can be very vulgar… Shit la… But then Thedy said Justina laughed at seeing my msgs… Hehe… Was supposed to wrk with Justina and Thedy but cos of someone… aiya dun wan to say it here la… Zzz…

2nd day of work was supposed to work with Justina and Thedy too! But! My partner early in the morning requested to follow Justina, but I know Justina dun like to work with him… So Justina said “No it’s ok I’m bringing Thedy only” So when I reached station there was a call so I wanted to follow Justina then she said no need, was surprised why she din want me to follow her and Thedy… Felt kinda sad… But Thedy explained to me tt Justina wanted me to follow her but cos my partner had requested to follow her to wch she rejected… So she cant be bringing me when she already rejected my partner… Zzz.. So worked with my partner lor.. Zzz.. I did told my partner tt I wud be working with Justina the next day, I really dun understand why he requested to follow Justina when he fuken knew I wanna stay station tt day… Pissed!!!! Lucky there’s Thedy who always calm me down…

Anyway followed Chua on the 2nd day… I lurrvee working with him… He’s damn funny… My fav PM!! Tmr is my off day but must go for PM Chat! Fuck… Think we all no life huh… Dammit.. But ok la… get to meet medics from 2nd Div!! So long neva meet Nasri…

I hate this feelin… Why must it come again… I want to be happy!! Wo yao kuai le, wo yao neng shui de anwen… *sings to the tune of Amei’s Wo Yao Kuai Le(I want happiness)*

Life’s A Bitch!

Drained…

Exchanged duty so that I would be able to go out with old friends… But was so damn suay on havin exchanged duty for the day where my station will be audited! Thedy and I had to check the whole damn alpha(A231) and make sure everything is in compliance with the guidelines given by Medical Dept… It was so damn tedious and both us were praying that there won’t be ambulance call cos we had so much things to do and our alpha was in a mess! Suddenly the ambulance coding went off.. Zzzz.. But thankfully location was at Pasir Ris, so A232 responded not us! Tiring tiring shift! The best part, havin exchanged duty, I was still not able to meet my friends… thx ar scdf!

Some pics!!

PM Zarinah

MO Thedy

MO Abdillah

 

LIFELINE

Khairul told me that the other day he saw Michelle Chia and Joakim Gomez at hotel 5, they were shooting for the new season of Lifeline! Lucky bastard! I asked him which alpha they used and he told me A332… The first season also they used Stn 33 cos it was the newest Station then.. But now Stn 23 is the newest!! They shud come here for the shooting! Argh!! Then we’ll get to see celebrities frequently!

Anyways channel 5 is playing the previous season of lifeline every Fri at 4pm! Caught it twice… But abit irritating, all the ambulance calls are standby cases… Nonsense sia… And the medic uniform is the tucked in one.. lol! Looked so toot… But I guess Joakim will be wearing the new medic uniform(paramedic version)… Hope I’ll get to see them at hotel 5 one of these days hopefully… Heard Michelle Chia is so much better looking then she appears to be on TV!

Sampai Menutup Mata…

Was so damn bored at work the other day, no bloody call… Someone turned on the radio and so the song by Acha Septriasa was on air… It nearly put me to sleep! So damn nice… Suddenly the music stop, I thought there was a call… Cos if there’s a call the radio will be cut off followed by ambulance coding… Turned out my driver off the radio and said “noisy la the radio.. ppl want to sleep also cannot” I was like dotz… thx to the radio tt I cud actually nearly fall asleep… Zzz… On night duty tonight… Havin some bad feelings… like m gonna get a collapse case tonight, or a standby case… Zzzz

Lawa seh dek ni… Nice accent too… Especially like the way she pronounced ‘jatuh’ haha… And yes tt guy in the MV is her real life bf, Si Irwansyah tu lah.. This is the OST from the movie Heart.

Updated*
Omg! I just found her friendster! She has an acct! She stated tt she likes to play Gunbound! Her nick is Littleprita, cant rem if I ever seen her on Gunbound… tt was like 2 yrs ago when I played GB! Can’t add her though cos OBVIOUSLY her acct is FULL! K I’m exploring into her friendster now… byebye!